Blog :: Aug 28 12, 08:36
Big Decision
I have a big decision to make and I really don't know what to do. I am hoping by writing this it will help. Should I go home or stay where I am at? My head says go home, she does not care if you are around, she only cares about the car and the fact that you are her only income right now, all she cares about now is her new girlfriend My heart says stay, maybe she does care but this is a new relationship and she just needs time to get into it fully. The problem is that it hurts so much. So it should be easy, go home. But leaving means not just leaving her, it means leaving a family that I care about and my baby boy, Harley. Can I really leave him and never see him again? I don't know. I want to believe that she does care and does want me here. But again it is hard when I read that I get on her nerves and she needs a night or a few nights off from being around me. I just want to know that I matter, that our friendship matters..that is all I want., is that asking to much? For some reason it is to much to ask. And I am just stupid girl staying where I am at.??????? Yeap a big decision I must make. *sighs*
I could probably visit...but it would be sometime before I did...get use to the idea and all. And you are right, friends do get on each other's nerves, I do know that...lol. I don't know, it just hurt a bit when I read it to someone new, you know.